More lows and highs

I argued my second motion yesterday. Complete train wreck. Everyone was very "oh, you did a good job" about it, but they were lying to make me feel better. I know when I do well and when I don't. Friday, I didn't. I am dissapointed and sad about it. One attorney, who didn't see it made a very helpful point. She said that of course I could have done better but I did the best I could in that moment. That's true, but if I want this job, I need to get better in those moments. Otherwise I will be drinking far too many Greyhounds at dive bars.

I got a second callback. For a job I really want. I'm not saying anything else about it because I don't want to screw it up.

Competition is this week. All day practice tomorrow. We're leaving Thursday am. Let the anxiety and nausea commence!